savvybug (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} savvybug) wrote,@ 2006-10-04 21:18:00 |
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How does one reconcile two incompatible desires.
I want to do something meaningful with my life.
I want to go to Washington D.C., work for a NGO, try and save lives on some level.
But I want to paint, and read, and laugh, watch scifi, be silly, go to grad school, and love. I don't want to let go of everything here, don't want to lose my friends, my old, simpler life.
You can have it all just not all at once.
And that sucks.
I feel as if I'm on some path to leaving everything and everyone behind.
I will graduate, and I will move on.
That seems so terrible and finite.
This was pleasant; now it's passing.
I'll grow up.
I feel like some part of me is ending.
How unfair.
I want to do something meaningful with my life.
I want to go to Washington D.C., work for a NGO, try and save lives on some level.
But I want to paint, and read, and laugh, watch scifi, be silly, go to grad school, and love. I don't want to let go of everything here, don't want to lose my friends, my old, simpler life.
You can have it all just not all at once.
And that sucks.
I feel as if I'm on some path to leaving everything and everyone behind.
I will graduate, and I will move on.
That seems so terrible and finite.
This was pleasant; now it's passing.
I'll grow up.
I feel like some part of me is ending.
How unfair.
